Well, we got the call and the bparents did not pick us. They picked a couple in PA since they are in PA. Art and I are both relieved (that we don’t have to rush around) and disappointed at the same time!
It’s difficult to have parenthood come so close and then vanish. But I’m focusing on what we learned here:
1. This is not our child. God already has our child picked out for us. I can rest assured in that. I relate it to when I was dating and had one failed relationship after another. I would throw an emotional tantrum “why not him? why not now?” Its was only after I met and married Art that I realized God had the right man for me picked out already and I’m GLAD I didn’t marry any of those others! So, God will send me our child in His timing; and just like being in love with Art is so right and wonderful, so will it be with my child, even I have to go through some mismatches first.
2. That Art and I can really step out in faith when we need to. Our faith has legs!
3. That we better get moving! This served as a wake up call for the both of us. We’ve been meaning to wash the baby clothes, find a pediatrician, install the car seat, finish buying what we need, etc. but kept procrastinating. This showed us that we could get an emergency placement at any time and we’d better be ready!
4. And, I’m happy for this unknown couple in PA who just became parents today. They must be so joyful and in love with their baby. I wish them the best.
5. How awesome my faves/readers are. It was like having a family all around me, waiting with me, praying, thinking about us. And how happy you are all really going to be when it does happen. As Silicon Implant said in a note, we don’t really *know* each other but it sure feels like we do; it sure feels like some form of friendship! I can’t thank you all enough for riding this roller coaster with me the last 24 hours.
2 Comments
May 18, 2008 at 3:42 am
I’m sorry I missed this news… Good to see you are able to be upbeat about it. God really does have a child already in mind for you, and that’s got to be reassuring.
I will talk to you next week when I have more news. Enjoy your weekend!
Hugs,
Min
May 19, 2008 at 8:37 pm
God does have a plan. and He brought this situation into your life for a reason…and perhaps for these exact things that you have learned from it. God bless and you are in my prayers.